I need your prayer [not a studio journal entry]

I haven't been completely honest with everyone around me. Even some of my closest friends. I stated some things about my first surgery in one of my first entries in this but I didn't write much about the second surgery because I didn't know very much. Let me reiterate some of the things from my first note.

I have bad hearing and wear in-ear hearing aids.

Last summer I had surgery on my left eardrum because I had two holes in it from an infection.

This surgery was not completely effective because they found a cholestoma (skin growth) on one of my 3 hearing bones.

They had to remove this after reconstructing my eardrum and then disconnect 2 of the bones, leaving me unable to hear well out of my left ear.

I now (tomorrow morning) am returning to the same surgeon to have those two bones connected.

Although this is a much easier surgery, if the cholestoma is back, they need to preform a canal wall down procedure.
(this is a picture of what my ear would look like after that: http://www.susmedicos.com/articulos_otologia_timpanoplastia_archivos/photo_1.jpg)

I have been scared out of my mind for the past week because it's finally here.

I finally told my best friend who is also my amazing girlfriend, two nights ago, just how scared I am.

She told me the best thing anyone could have told me at that point. That God will do whatever's best for me and no matter how it turns out, I need to realize that. She also gave me this scripture: 1 Peter 5:7.

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you"

I love this verse and it has helped a lot, but until after I dropped her off at her house today, I had not done quite this.

On my way home I prayed the most difficult, sincere, painful, intense prayer that I have ever prayed in my life.

But I'm done worrying, my life is in his hands.

Thank you if you read this all the way through, it means a lot to me.

If the hearing aid thing is new information for you...please don't treat me differently, it is the main reason my hair is still long, because I am so self-conscious of them.

My one other request is that you would please pray for me and my surgeon for tomorrow morning.

Thank you so much.
♥ Carl